Charlie's Bird

living the dream with Charlie and Thandi and chirping all the way back to the nest.

Archive for June, 2015

Where in the world

…is my motivation? Every morning I set my alarm for 04h30, and then when it goes off and it’s dark and cold and miserable (drizzling this morning), I roll over and go back to sleep. The real problem is that I am not getting to my run later in the day either. Oy! I am not doing well here, am I? Half marathon in 11 days, trail run in 12… I have managed to curtail the eating since yesterday – I know that that isn’t a huge achievement, but it has to start somewhere.

Ok, let’s be accountable to you all – time trail this evening, 10km tomorrow morning!

Phew!

…what a weekend, I think I need a couple of days to recover from it!

Friday night we had dinner with friends out on their farm. Thandi had a blast with her little friend, and she discovered the joys of rollerskates! Look at this grin!

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Saturday dawned a lot cooler than I anticipated, and we climbed into the car, Charlie drove me 2 and a bit hours away off to the mountains, so I could do a trail run. It wasn’t the toughest one I’ve ever done, but the conditions were harrowing! It was freezing, with a gale force wind driving the rain horizontally into you. Crikey! After some slow climbing initially we hit some flats, and even there I hardly made any progress as it was straight into the wind. Yoh! The second half was much nicer though, through a forest, and when we were exposed, the wind was behind us. So I made it home, and definitely wasn’t last!

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Once I’d finished and caught my breathe, we hopped back into the car to drive back home – it did feel like an awfully long way to go to run in foul conditions…

Saturday evening Thandi had her fist sleep over at a friend’s house – she has stayed with aunties and grannies before, but never a friend. She was super excited! As was little Charlotte. And they had so much fun! Charlie and I went to dinner and anxiously watched our phones. But the call never came. We met up for breakfast on Sunday morning, and got her full report – she is already even planning her next sleep over!

After breakfast we headed off for  very fancy lunch on an appaloosa farm about 150km away. It was another adventure, and good fun! We had been invited as guests of my cheflady and we were quite spoilt! After a very civilized G&T, we started with a creamy prawn and potato gnocchi (prawns were a bit chalky and not great, but gorgeous light gnocchi), followed by a roasted stuffed duck served on parsnip puree with winter veggies (interesting take on duck, but I was disappointed not to crunch some crispy skin); and dessert was a salted caramel and dark chocolate torte, which was very nice! The farm only stocks Thelema wine, so we shared a bottle of their merlot – delicious!!!!

Then after a leisurely drive home, we headed back to TJ’s house to meet her sister who has flown in for a brief holiday. It was really nice to meet her, after having heard so much about her!

And then finally, it was home time… bedtime….

 

Let me count the ways

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Good busy

…today has been a good busy day, so far, I fear it is about to become frustrating though… I have completed a busy clinic at the local state hospital, seen way more patients at the rooms than I should have, and am now waiting to go to theatre; and I have heard that I am going to be delayed because someone else is still busy in the theatre I will be operating in… Gr r! Oh well! Not much I can do about it!

Lucky girl

…I am. Today, after a decent sleep and a good run, my theatre cases went relatively smoothly, and then I got to spend the rest of the morning with my daughter! Thandi had her school outing to one of the local farms, which has an extensive avery, with lots of birds and then I got to go along to her “Moms allowed to watch” dancing class, which only happens once a term. Bless! It’s so damn cute, and she loves, loves, loves it all!

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Winter mornings

…flip, is it just me? I am really battling to get going in the mornings at the moment! I have had some seriously interrupted nights, accompanied by a generous dose of insomnia, and man, these cold dark mornings are the pits! I even went so far as to get up at 04h30 on Friday morning, get dressed for my run, go to the bathroom, and then decided it was far to cold, I got undressed and retreated under the blankets again… This morning I was ‘late’ for work, I could not get myself motivated to get up, so only emerged at 06h30, to dawdle my way through the shower, then I couldn’t decide what to wear… Oh, for heaven’s sake, I was pathetic! Anyway, let’s hope if I have a good solid sleep tonight, getting up at 04h30 tomorrow won’t be too bad?

melancholy

…such a descriptive word. Such is my mood…

A lot is happening that’s making me feel this way – a dear friend has just experienced a failed IVF; Thandi was almost in tears yesterday wanting to understand why she can’t have a sister and needing to know why her mommy’s tummy is broken; it was Fathers’ Day which automatically induces guilt in me and seeing my parents now aging quickly is agonizing; I’ve been on call and been very busy at difficult times.

I know the feeling will pass, or morph into something else, but yesterday and today I am overwhelmed with it. My heart feels heavy, my brain feels misty and gloomy. It’s an exhausting and exhausted place…