… it’s been hard this week, to keep my head above water. After the balloon release I felt so sad and defeated. It’s been hard to pick myself up and get on with it. But hey. here we are at Thursday, and tomorrow we jump into the car and drive down to Cape Town, for Saturday I run.
…today Em’s Mom and her family bid Ethan farewell on his journey to the stars. They are having a private ceremony for him at 11h00 today, could I ask you to spare a thought for them as they go through this incredibly difficult time. A group of us will be doing a balloon release at the local beach this evening, sending our thoughts and prayers with them to those stars.
“Goodnight Sweet Prince, and flights of angels sing you to your rest”
..a holiday! Yoh! After the last few weeks I am finished! Even after a lovely quiet weekend, where I did little more than run, eat and read, I am exhausted still. These last 3 weeks at work, the intense training, and now Em’s mom loosing baby Ethan is just culminating into pushing me very close to the edge again. My sleep has gone to hell in a handbag, I cannot wait for the sun to come up so I can stop pretending to sleep. And I am just weary…
But this little girl makes my heart sing!
And this place makes my heart sing…
…today was going to be a happy post – a post about Thandi going to school in her new ‘scrubs’ and the frivolous plans for the weekend. But it’s not.
A dear friend – Em’s mommy – has just learnt that her son, still in utero, at 36+ weeks has passed away. Devastated does not begin to describe it. Heart shattering moments… How does one carry on after this – a long history of infertility, a spontaneous pregnancy, almost there, days away from meeting him… It’s times like this that make me doubt this God of mercy and love everyone talks about… I just wish I could make it better, turn back the clock… It’s too much to take in…
Em’s Mommy, Daddy and Em – I wish I could make it better, I’m so so sorry. I sit here with tears streaming down my face, with love in my heart. I wish distance didn’t separate us, so I could climb into my car and come to you, now in this time of need. I have no words, only love.
..looms on the horizon… the weekend… with no plans but a night trail run and a hairdressers appointment. Alleluhah! So 2 busy days to get through at work, and some operating this afternoon and then the weekend. Yayayayayay!
On another note – it’s “People who Help us” day at school tomorrow for Thandi – I’ve made a costume for the little girl who wants to be a ‘doctor who helps ladies’. Tomorrow I will post a picture of her looking quite medical. Sweet girl! I found the sewing quite therapeutic yesterday evening. I didn’t have a pattern so I just winged it, but it seems to have worked quite well, and I was relieved when we tried it on this morning and it fitted her! I really do love what she is learning at school, her teacher is inspired! And in 2 weeks they are having an outing to the fire station and the NSIR, which should be great fun. Charlie will take her this time – sadly I’ll be slogging!
… on the blog, because it has been too busy, and I really have little to say. All work and little play makes Birdie a dull bird.
In other news, running is going ok, still battling my brain; I have to make Thandi a doctor costume for “people who help us” day at school; work is busy and I am still feeling very tired.
How are you all?
…Thank God That’s Over! Phew, I survived one of the busiest weekends I have ever put myself through. I am now not looking to plan or do a thing for the next couple of days. Between trail runs, birthday parties and picnics, I am done! All partied out. And stiff and sore…